2016

One more year has gone and I am trying to get used to the new year. Many things have occurred last year.

My mother has been diagnosed gallbladder cancer at terminal stage and she is still battling against it. I got a job as part-time private tutor and paid proofreading work from home. My husband got pay rise and promoted as senior engineer. Both of my brother and sister in laws recently got hitched. This was the summary of 2015.

Because I was too busy with family and work issues, I did not realised that I have passed the first day of 2016 and I did not have the chance to think about this year resolutions. But as I wrote this post, my mind has started to arrange some resolutions and I am looking forward to achieve them.

After a year of marriage, I know everyone especially my mother in law is hoping that I would get pregnant. I have been telling everyone that, my husband and me are into family planning; considering all circumstances, we feel it is best to plan properly in making babies. Yes, of course I am looking forward to be a mother but again I put my trust in Allah’s will.

Whatever arrangement God has made for me for this year, I pray that He provide me the strength and courage to face the odds and wonders of this life.

InsyaAllah.

P/S: Hello 2016. It is my pleasure to meet you 🙂

Reminder: Our Judgment Day

Many times verses in the Quran repeated about the end of world. The question is when will be the end of world? 

When the horn is blown once. The earth and the mountains will be carried off and crushed; utterly crushed. That is the day when the inevitable event will come to pass (Quran, 69:13-15)

The Quran promised that at the end of world, the deads would be awaken again for Judgement. 

 And they say, “There is not but our worldly life; we die and live (i.e. some people die and others live, replacing them) and nothing destroys us except time.” And they have of that no knowledge; they are only assuming. And when Our verses are recited to them as clear evidences, their argument is only that they say, “Bring [back] our forefathers, if you should be truthful.” Say, “God causes you to live, then causes you to die; then He will assemble you for the Day of Resurrection, about which there is no doubt,” but most of the people do not know. (Quran, 45:24-26)

I realized that people died more than they lived. The time spent living in the world commonly less than 100 years. Only those who were the lucky ones might lived few years more.
As a person who is still living, I keep reminding myself that a preparation for the day of Judgement is crucially important. I may not know how short my life is and I understand that this is a secret of Allah. 

God is the Knower of the future; He does not permit anyone to unveil such knowledge. Only through the messenger that He chooses does He reveal future and past events (Quran, 72:27)

Keep doing good deeds and improving myself to follow Islamic rules to be a better living human as for now and later. InsyaAllah. 

Just a thought: Dealing with Life is like an Experiment in Science

I could not sleep and was widely awake at 2:00am. My brain was running actively and as I was reflecting my past and present life, I just realized that life is like scientific experiment vice versa.

We prepared hypothesis but yet to know the outcome unless until we made the experiment which what we called try and error. 

In science, the outcome may be either hypothesis is correct or incorrect that there is a need for alternative hypothesis. In life, the outcome is either being upset or happy. 

Age and Maturity

It is commonly accepted that the older we are the more mature we would be. But this common norm does not really reflect the truth in reality. There are some people I have seen, whose age over 40 still not behaving at the level of maturity that I thought they should be.

It is very hard to define what exact level maturity one should have at certain age. In other words, it is very subjective and might depending on other factors such as culture, background, education etc.

The reason why I came out with this post was because I am quite impressed to see younger persons than me who I felt are a lot mature for their age. Looking at them remind me of myself when I was at their age. Although I could not remember at what level of maturity I was at that time, I was as energetic as them. Thought about the future, what career I wanted to have, where do I wanted to work, when should I be getting married… These were thoughts I had in the past. Listening to them talking about their future plans made me miss my youth age. How I wish I could reverse time to go through those moment again.

The fact that they started to figuring about what they are going to do in their lives showed that they are being responsible of themselves. I thought that was an act of mature and age does not count.

Poem: Faith

A feeling that unexplained;

People said it’s the light that enter one’s heart;

I have no idea;

When, how and where it came;

Religion?

Christian, Islam, Buddhism and Hinduism?

How many Gods to believe?

Is that faith?

I have no idea.

All I know it’s a feeling;

Calm, trust and belonged to;

The al-Mighty that exist;

The One and only;

Is that faith?